Fuck the system

Since having to resubmit, ive just felt really down and not myself falling asleep at 7:30 yesterday and waking up at 10 i still felt drained. Today was even worse as i ended up getting a migrane, whilst at work...
And finding out that pretty much everyone else has gotten good marks, why me?
All for using fucking cardboard, since the teacher assessing doesnt like it, only to find out someone else had used cardboard and got a credit.
Its bullshit.
Since doing this course i have realised the double standards which apply to differnt people, and how teachers say they never have favourites. Fuck that.
I can pinpoint right now who they would be.
I have worked my ass off this semsester, but what is only noticed is when i miss one day of school and im told that if i turned up i would learn something.
I have been to every image making class but 1.
Whats with that.
I dunno if the teacher is just racist or just doesnt like me...
I know i havent done anything wrong to be judged in this way...
Which makes me ask, would i be happier moving away to study where maybe im given an equil opportunity to be assessed?
Because im not going to give up, i know what i want, and i might not be good at it yet, but im going to do this.
Everyone says its their passion and what not.
But it really is, and i dont care what the teachers say either way.
I have alot i wanna learn and ill be prepared to do it elsewhere if need be.

What to do with you

Youuuuuuuuuuuu.

Im not sure what im meant to do anymore.

Ive grown tired of this cycle.

I wish you'd break the habit.

Ill never leave your side.

But please atleast try.

It kills me to think whats happening inside your head.

Do what you can.

I wish there was something i could do.

I feel its never enough.

Help yourself.

Help us.

<3

My Christmas List

Black bookcase/storage

Betsey Laptop Bag

GPS

Hello Kitty Planner

2 More Days

Until i get my life back for a couple of months and i cannot wait!!!!

Protecht has been an interesting experience and i have definately learnt alot, fineally coping with time management and taking the stress alot better.

But have lost a social life in the process of it.

But atleast im glad to say this course will benefit me alot more than i can say for others, who work their 9-5 shitty retail jobs with shitty customers and shitty pay.

And i hate the fact that none of them think i work damn hard at this course, and that its "just" sewing.

Its a fucking bachelor of design, 5 days a week, and assignments coming out of my ass constantly!

And that is all i would like to say.

I hate repetiting myself, and justfying why its not what they expect it to be.

I didnt even expect it to be this full on.

The end.

Telephony

Im already kicking into holiday mode, i can taste the freedom, sleep ins, long nights, lazy days, foreshore, and beach trips...
Only 3 weeks of school left, and will probs be the most stressful time of the year but trying to take it easy and have fun with it.
Im defs in a much better position now than i have ever been.
I dont care for much these days only caring about people who appreciate me, and finealllyyyyy got my shit back, i did have to go pick it up but fineally!

Had an interesting/fun weekend playing house with Michael.
Haha the dear made me dinner Chicken with side serving of risotto
and playing Forza and sucking at that shit.
But i now own a Saleen something something in pastel pink
;)

I also conformed and bought an iphone, i didnt want to as my first choice being a htc touch pro 2, but optus doesnt provide me with it! Coz mine is totally shit only having windows mobile 6.1 and no upgrade til who knows when...
So iphone is best on market atm and is growing on me but i still cant typeee <3 qwerty keypads..


oh and did i mention Foreshore?

LocoLoco

Had a cute day at the beach with hunny bunny.
Was a nice change of scene.
I love the sand, cold water and sunbaking
but he doesnt
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All was good cept for Canberra bogan chix and dicks...
calling me Lady Gaga and asking if i had a penis.
Real mature.
The funny thing is that the one saying all those comments was the only skinny girl with a group of beach whales and her boost of confidence knowing they could probs squash me no worries...
It just aggrivates me and makes me ask why dont they just have a good time, they are at the fucking beach...ffs
Do what im doing and have a good time, not worry about what im doing and shit...

Thats my rant
and id love to see those girls n guys out in civic one day
I think it would make my night..
once i can even the score and have a few buddies on my side
haha

And another note
ILY Michael for buying me the urban originals bag i wanted
:DDDDD
fun day
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