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Christmas Deer

Ive come to some revelations within the last few days
Im scared, excited, nervous of what might happen
A fresh start is well deserved

Keep you posted..

Snatch n Grab

Why are things so hard and complicated
I am definately in over my head
And going with my strong willed personality always taking too much i can handle.
Leaving me where I am now.
Upset and confused.

It just goes, you help someone out, you expect it would be returned?
Only in my case its never returned to full value.
Or am i just being selfish and asking too much?
Or even worse if you have to ask for it to be returned?

Definately doing a full circle talking bullshit
but this is how my mind is working at the moment.

Im definately in a postion i shouldnt be dealing with, but someone with life experience and wisdom with psychological bullshit.
Coz im starting to crack, when you do this for so long and try to help and of course when you dont see results theres that lack of disapointment and anger.

I feel like this is just dragging us both down, and im willing to try as im one who doesnt give up on things that i feel passionate about, but if the heart isnt there then what is?

Ive given so much, one might even say too much not to be arrogant, but the amount of bullshit ive been though you probablly wouldnt believe.
Yet im still here.

I dont expect much, but i do expect sinceriety.
And on occasion for me to be put first for once.
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Holidaez

My to do list:

-Read my books

-Buy a storage cupboard and do it up. Paint black and pink

-Go through clothes

-Tidy and sort out my sewing stuff

-Scan old photos

-Put up and decorate Christmas Tree :D

-Find Black Dahlia- Unhallowed cd ><>

And watch endless amounts of movies and dvd series i needa catch up on

Fuck the system

Since having to resubmit, ive just felt really down and not myself falling asleep at 7:30 yesterday and waking up at 10 i still felt drained. Today was even worse as i ended up getting a migrane, whilst at work...
And finding out that pretty much everyone else has gotten good marks, why me?
All for using fucking cardboard, since the teacher assessing doesnt like it, only to find out someone else had used cardboard and got a credit.
Its bullshit.
Since doing this course i have realised the double standards which apply to differnt people, and how teachers say they never have favourites. Fuck that.
I can pinpoint right now who they would be.
I have worked my ass off this semsester, but what is only noticed is when i miss one day of school and im told that if i turned up i would learn something.
I have been to every image making class but 1.
Whats with that.
I dunno if the teacher is just racist or just doesnt like me...
I know i havent done anything wrong to be judged in this way...
Which makes me ask, would i be happier moving away to study where maybe im given an equil opportunity to be assessed?
Because im not going to give up, i know what i want, and i might not be good at it yet, but im going to do this.
Everyone says its their passion and what not.
But it really is, and i dont care what the teachers say either way.
I have alot i wanna learn and ill be prepared to do it elsewhere if need be.

What to do with you

Youuuuuuuuuuuu.

Im not sure what im meant to do anymore.

Ive grown tired of this cycle.

I wish you'd break the habit.

Ill never leave your side.

But please atleast try.

It kills me to think whats happening inside your head.

Do what you can.

I wish there was something i could do.

I feel its never enough.

Help yourself.

Help us.

<3

My Christmas List

Black bookcase/storage

Betsey Laptop Bag

GPS

Hello Kitty Planner

2 More Days

Until i get my life back for a couple of months and i cannot wait!!!!

Protecht has been an interesting experience and i have definately learnt alot, fineally coping with time management and taking the stress alot better.

But have lost a social life in the process of it.

But atleast im glad to say this course will benefit me alot more than i can say for others, who work their 9-5 shitty retail jobs with shitty customers and shitty pay.

And i hate the fact that none of them think i work damn hard at this course, and that its "just" sewing.

Its a fucking bachelor of design, 5 days a week, and assignments coming out of my ass constantly!

And that is all i would like to say.

I hate repetiting myself, and justfying why its not what they expect it to be.

I didnt even expect it to be this full on.

The end.

Telephony

Im already kicking into holiday mode, i can taste the freedom, sleep ins, long nights, lazy days, foreshore, and beach trips...
Only 3 weeks of school left, and will probs be the most stressful time of the year but trying to take it easy and have fun with it.
Im defs in a much better position now than i have ever been.
I dont care for much these days only caring about people who appreciate me, and finealllyyyyy got my shit back, i did have to go pick it up but fineally!

Had an interesting/fun weekend playing house with Michael.
Haha the dear made me dinner Chicken with side serving of risotto
and playing Forza and sucking at that shit.
But i now own a Saleen something something in pastel pink
;)

I also conformed and bought an iphone, i didnt want to as my first choice being a htc touch pro 2, but optus doesnt provide me with it! Coz mine is totally shit only having windows mobile 6.1 and no upgrade til who knows when...
So iphone is best on market atm and is growing on me but i still cant typeee <3 qwerty keypads..


oh and did i mention Foreshore?

LocoLoco

Had a cute day at the beach with hunny bunny.
Was a nice change of scene.
I love the sand, cold water and sunbaking
but he doesnt
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All was good cept for Canberra bogan chix and dicks...
calling me Lady Gaga and asking if i had a penis.
Real mature.
The funny thing is that the one saying all those comments was the only skinny girl with a group of beach whales and her boost of confidence knowing they could probs squash me no worries...
It just aggrivates me and makes me ask why dont they just have a good time, they are at the fucking beach...ffs
Do what im doing and have a good time, not worry about what im doing and shit...

Thats my rant
and id love to see those girls n guys out in civic one day
I think it would make my night..
once i can even the score and have a few buddies on my side
haha

And another note
ILY Michael for buying me the urban originals bag i wanted
:DDDDD
fun day
x

Decapitation

The next major step is complete evisceration of the carcass.

To begin, make a cut from the solar plexus, the point between the breastbone and stomach, almost to the anus.

Be very careful not to cut into the intestines, as this will contaminate the surrounding area with bacteria and possibly feces (if this does happen, cleanse thoroughly)

A good way to avoid this is to use the knife inside the abdominal wall, blade facing toward you, and making cautious progress.

Make a cut around the anus, or "bung", and tie it off with twine.

This also prevents contamination, keeping the body from voiding any material left in the bowel.

With a saw, cut through the pubic bone, or "aitch".

The lower body is now completely open, and you can begin to pull the organ masses (large and small intestines, kidneys, liver, stomach) out and cut them away from the back wall of the body.

When the bleeding slows, preparation for decapitation can be started.

Continue the cut to the throat around the entire neck, from the jawline to the back of the skull.

Once muscle and ligament have been sliced away, the head can be cleanly removed by gripping it on either side and twisting it off, separation occurring where the spinal cord meets the skull.

This is indicative of the method to be used for dividing other bones or joints, in that the meat should generally be cut through first with a knife, and the exposed bone then separated with a saw or cleaver.

The merits of keeping the skull as a trophy are debatable for two principal reasons.

First, a human skull may call suspicious attention to the new owner.

Secondly, thorough cleaning is difficult due to the large brain mass, which is hard to remove without opening the skull.

The brain is not good to eat.

Removing the tongue and eyes, skinning the head, and placing it outside in a wire cage may be effective.

The cage allows small scavengers such as ants and maggots to cleanse the flesh from the bones, while preventing it being carried off by larger scavengers, such as dogs and children.

After a sufficient period of time, you may retrieve the skull and boil it in a dilute bleach solution to sterilize it and wash away any remaining tissue.

3 Concepts, 3 Mood Boards

Photography & Identity through Technology:

Deathware:

Positively Dreaming:

ffffound.com

I find this website really inspiring
Some pics of the day :)

Highschool Bullshit

Im fully sick of this highschool bullshit.

Im sick of being used

Im sick of giving people my all, and helping them out, when nothing is ever returned..

Especially the fact when people will msg me asking for something and to drop it off to their house, and yet I cant even get a fucking invite out with a certain group of people.

I can see the immaturity and I used to care, but seriously not its not even worth it, ive done my part and people are too selfish to include others thats fine.

Atleast I can honestly say I have tried, thats all I can do I guess?

I truely want to stay mates with this group of people, but what can I do?

And im not going to be used again and helping them out when they never help me out..

So is this the end?

DollHouse

Confused House.
Does it come to a point where everything just clicks?
Or is it a matter of aim and fire?
Youd think after time things would become easier?
But the pile of achievement just gets higher.

Walking On A Dream

Such a big weekend in Melbourne i must say!

Im defs paying for it now.

My weekend started with a delayed flight of 3 hours, due to maintance work in Perth and we were all meant to be notified about it, but werent..damn Tiger! And out of it we got $8 food vouchers wooo....

Fineally getting into Melb city we sussed some places exempt of 2am lockout so we treked to QBar for a little party, but ended early and went to be at 5am, so we would be keen for Parklife.

Grabbed a quick maccas breaky, then went to Parklife, scored 3 V energy drinks on the way in, and quickly spotting blonde haired, tandoori chicken girls getting busted for drugs.

Best sight ever, wish i took a picture, but i guess you can only imagine..

PARKLIFE=AMAZING

smirnoff double blacks, sunnies, ferris wheel, masks, lesbians, camera, water, sunshine, vodka down pants, randoms, lights, hill chillin, dirty shoes, chipped nails, mosh pits, bob the builder, osalma bin laden, bertie blackman in disguise?, bird dancers, condoms, hugs, randoms taking pictures, dancing.

Art Vs Science, Lady Soverign, The Cool Kids, MSTRKRFT, Crystal Castles, Emipre of The Sun and it was pretty sad when it all ended with The Rapture playing no sex for ben, then treked back to the hotel to pre "chill" before we would go out and hit the town... only thing is we didnt make it out of the hotel passed out by 12am. Sad really.

In a way im kinda glad we didnt go out but at the same time so depressed...

I did have to get tattooed the next day at 1.. and it was struggle town even doing that.

The tattooing part was pleasantly suprising was imagning worst pain imaingable for being hungover, but turned out really well didnt hurt at all, even after the whole 4 hour session, and i actually fell asleep at one point and jumped when i woke up, weirdest thing ever...

Zoe was really nice and cant wait to get tattooed by her again, possibly decemeber/jan maybe even go up and get tattooed at QLD Tattoo Convention.. who knows

We then hit up Lygon Street, for some sweet italiania, and the owner trying to scare us with fake spiders and masks... was abit much haha... Yummy food :)

Making our way back we went to some photoplace and went crazy taking lots of asian photos and drawing on them...

Again depressed it wasnt a long weekend in Melb as it is everywhere else, we couldnt go to any clubs so we got some icecream and headed back to the hotel and passed out very quickly...

Monday became shopping day, and im pretty sure i spent close to $1000 and i dont really know where it went... got my Wittner shoes i wanted, and got some cute things at Allanah Hill, General Pants, Dangerfield etc.. And tried that place every vegan kid goes on about The Lord of The Fries, and it was actually pretty tasty i must say!

Rough Sketches, Not Exactly What I Want Though

Zoe of Third Eye Tattoo

Plans to buy on weekend..

Wittner Mariah Heel

Wittner Allannah Ballet Flats

Mollini Pink Heels, If i cant find the Wittner ones i want

To You

Words to describe: Cute, Funny, Hilarious, Sweet, Sexy, Babin, Matured, Silly, Attractive, Geeky, Fatty, Skinny, Lanky, Tall, Sarcastic, Serious, Protective, Passionate, Caring.

Ily.

I will miss you very much when i go to Melbs tomorrow, but rest assured i will be bringing you lots of presents when i get home!

Anddd we will be booking in flights to Cairns asap

:)

Ps. I miss you already.

x

Want Want Want

Alexander McQueen Heart PumpsBetsey Laptop Bag in Pink & Blue

Christian Louboutin Anemone Pumps Hello Kitty Toaster even though i dont eat toast

LOVE this bed but in black

Who wouldnt want one of these

The wallet i have wanted for agesssssss.

Sold out in every country :(

Today

Sitting on my bedroom floor, with freshly dyed hair, in my robe.
Im loving the lazy days of holidays. Until 2 weeks is up and back to CIT for me.
Im waiting on a email for my sleeve design, im so impatient!!
But i guess im getting it done on sunday!
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I should really be doing something on my long ass list of things to do:

-Pack for melbs

-Call work

-Develop concepts for "Protecht"

-Make 3 storyboards & 3 mood boards for concepts

-Resubmit "Hierarchial Habits" storyboard

-Work on debate about Sustainability

-Work on research project and add to my blog

-Pick up Photoshop prints from printers

-Work on my sketchbook on fashion illustrations

-Finish tolle of bubble skirt & make finished skirt

-Buy STYG tix and Sike Your Mind tix for melb & cbr

I feel so much better now haha I like making lists?

But still so much to do in like a week...

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The Sun Will Rise Tomorrow

Feel so lost?

Always trying to please everyone, such a thing i hate about myself...

Why is it that when you try to make things that seem right feel so wrong to someone else?

People make mistakes, and have bad judgement yes.

But being a by stander is easier than it seems.

When your actually put on those shoes wouldnt you see a different perspective?

Anyways... I feel like i should choose what decision i want to make, yes people may put in their opinion which i appreciate but in the end im going to choose what i feel is right.

My Life

Snoooze Time

HTC Touch Pro & Pink Sony Vaio

Where i do my makeup & hair did

High School Sweethearts? haha

Kipper

Winston